When Sin Seems Close

Last week was one of those weeks for me where nothing quite went right. I didn't have any major calamities or personal meltdowns. It was just a long slow build of discussions that I didn't engage with properly, parenting decisions made in frustration or anger, meetings that didn't go as planned, and some personal issues that took a sudden and sad turn. I was left with a strong sense of just how pervasive sin is in this world.

Nothing devastating happened last week. It was just a week where I can look back and not really find much about which I can say "that went well." Those kind of weeks can scream "we live in a broken and fallen world" as much as the harder things in life. If things are generally well and nothing in particular is wrong but things still end up wrong what is it if not sin that creates such a week?

A holiday weekend spent in heaven (my family's cabin) has't really helped me regain perspective so I spent yesterday and today brooding. Over how to fix things. Over how to get a project to turn the corner. Over ways to not bring work emotion home to my family. And on and on.

It turns out brooding isn't a helpful or healthy thing. After a week where sin and disfunction and brokenness, both my own and the world's, seem all too close and ubiquitious what my heart really needed was a sense of God's goodness.

So I am waiting for that today. I need some perspective.

On mercy.

On patience.

On God's goodness.

On healing and hope.

Last week wasn't full of woe of the tragic kind. Just the stuck-in-sin-and-in-a-sinful-world sort of woe. This song is helping me today so I thought I'd share.